Well, that is the question that I am asking as I search around craigslist.com for a new car.  Back in April, I broke off a love/hate relationship with a 92 Subaru Loyale (really it broke off with me).  Since then, I have been seeking to see what God would do in providing for a car…not that He had to provide a car for me, but I believe He was asking me to trust Him with that provision. 

Well, I didn’t see any possibility of getting said car for about 4 months.  Then, something wonderful happened.  My home church, in Glasgow, MT, decided to start a vehicle fund for me.  They set out to raise $8000 for me to be able to purchase a vehicle that would last for a while, as God seems to have me driving all over the place for His work.  I have to say that I was quite unsure if this fund would ever reach its goal.  Well now, aren’t I one of little faith.

 So, here I am.  Two weeks ago, my Pastor emailed to let me know they had reached the mark.  At first, I was cheering, as I was so excited at the prospect of getting a vehicle. 

Shortly after, though, I was sitting on my bed and crying at the thought that the Creator of the Heavens…yeah, all of the universes we know of and those we have yet to “find”…the Creator of Earth and all that is in it had seen to provide a car for me.  Yeah me, the one that spent a majority of my life claiming to know Him but only knowing of Him…the one that even knowing how much He has forgiven, still turned my back and denied His love…the one who needs a constant reminder of just how much God has really done for me.  Even now, as I think about it, I ask, “Why me, Lord, why me?”

 The answer has to somehow come back to this, “For MY (God’s) Glory!”  I mean, seriously, it doesn’t make any sense to me, but according to His riches, His kindness, His goodness, His Love, etc. me getting a car from God brings Him glory.  I guess it is a God thing…

 Though I don’t understand everything about why God does what He does, I am glad that I get to be a part of what He does.  I am blessed to be loved and accepted, as all that I am, by His sacrificial gift of Forgiveness.  And in that, I get to experience the richness of His blessings.

…Oh if everyone could just see God as He really is…